Sheesh! When was the last time I was on here? I can never remember the password! Well, married life is good, albeit not perfect- go figure. I'm definitely enjoying not being engaged any more. I'm also looking for a new job, which unfortunately will probably mean a pay cut, but oh well!

I haven't journaled in forever! Nick and I are engaged now, and have set our wedding date for 6 months from today: June 2! I have defended my thesis, and am this-close to turning in my final revisions to be an MS, and on Dec 13 I'll take the RD exam to become a registered dietitian. A lot has happened, huh?

Nick told me last night that he had read my journals- all of them. I felt aweful about that! I have been trying to figure out exactly what I feel so bad about, and decided that it's twofold. First, I feel a little violated that he would notice that i have a LJ account, and look up what I wrote without my ever saying "Hey Nick, you should read my journals!" I guess he felt a little bad about that, which is why he told me. Moslty I feel bad that he found out about things that way. I didn't say very many nice things about him back at the beginning, and I also never told him that I had something going on with Chris for a time, and I can imaging that it was not a pleasant experience reading about those things.

He didn't seem upset with me though, and it is kind of a relief to have things in the open. Now I don't feel like I'm keeping secrets from Nick. I really would have rather just told him those things in person, though.

Oh well, I have to go to work now. I'm really enjoying my metabolic support rotation.

Oh, and Nick said something about how I had been afraid that people would think that I couldn't do better when they saw me with him. I feel bad that he had to read that, but now that I think of it, I doubt I could do better. Nick really is a great boyfriend! He's so thoughtful; everyday I get excited about seeing him later in the day. Like right now.

Last night I was supposed to work on my thesis, but wasn't in the mood. Sometimes the words just flow, and sometimes they're just not there. So I did my logbook instead, and made some jewelry. I didn't get to see Nick, but that means that I did get to do some pleasure reading, and go to bed on time. So it wasn't all bad.

Well, I finished my cardiac rotation, and really enjoyed it. However, it made me realize just how anal so many dietitians are. The one I got to work with told me that she used to make copies of all her evaluations and gave a thank you card to her preceptor of the week each and every week of the internship. While this may be considerate, it is not something that had even crossed my mind. Can't a simple "thank you, taking time out of your busy schedule to teach me more about being a dietitian is very appreicated" be good enough? Does she also need it in writing? whatever.

Today I helped out with a conversational english class being held at my church for international students. It was fun, so I think I'll do it again sometime. Later today I'm going to Angie's baby shower! yay!

I started my cardiac rotation today, and the preceptor is really cool, and knows her stuff. That's nice to know, since she went through the same exact internship only two years ago. There's hope for me yet!

Well, I'm finally finished with my four week food service rotation. We got to do a lot of stuff, so it was a good experience. IT would have been better if it had been less hectic with their opening of the new cafeteria, but hey, it was still good. Yesterday we were only there for an hour, so I had all day to get stuff done. I did laundry, cleaned out the fridge, finished making a bag for all my stuff (think girl briefcase), and probably some other stuff I'm forgetting. I also went to the dentist after a year and a half... no cavities! However, they tried to charge me $120 after telling me it would be $60. The lady said "$60 for the exam, $60 for the cleaning" and I told her that I had asked how much it would cost and she had told me $60. So she let me just pay $60. That's good because I just realized that my checkbook is negative right now. I transferred some money over from my savings, but it still stinks to see that negative number.

On another note, Nick has been thinking of flying me to Nebraska with him to meet his family. I told him that would send a very strong message if he decides to do that, but Juliana just alerted me that it would send a very strong message on my part to agree to go. Of course it would! I can't believe I hadn't thought of that! Well, nothing's decided yet, so we'll see later on. In the mean time, we'll just stick with hiking (first one of the year!) and singing at the assisted living home (yeee haw~!)

Also, I decided to give up coffee for lent, then as an afterthough I also gave up coke. I really miss the coke, and sort of miss the coffee. How many more weeks is it until Easter?

I'm not feeling to great these days. Not exacly bad, but definitley not right. Who knows what's wrong with me. Jennifer said that one of her friends has mono, and was worried that she may have gotten it, but she seems fine. So I don't think I need to be concerned about mono. I hope I don't get too sick before I get a chance to get health insurance. I wish i Hadn't let it expire in January. Oh well.

Sarah decided on Thursday that she needed to move back home. I think she was probably right, but it left Jennifer and I in a bind looking for a roommate at midterm. However, I have a lead on a girl who could move in in May. That means Sarah only would have to pay for one more month that she's not here. I talked to Jamie (prospect) and she sounds like a good roomie: just graduated from college, has a job. I like those things in a roommate. It makes me think she'll be responsible. Now I'm just worried about getting the lease figured out with the office, since they seem to be particular about not subletting. I'll deal with that when I get to it, though.

Ok, it has been forever since I've written anything. Life is ok- busy. I realize every week that I don't really like this full time thing- especially since I'm not getting paid. Hopefully I'll get a good job when I finish. I also looked into earned income credit tonight, and the IRS predicts I'll get a measly $140 back. I figured I'd get at least $300! Oh well. I guess I'll just continue to be poor. Things are going well with Nick. I see him pretty much every day, and really enjoy hanging out with him. He met my parents and brother this weekend, and they all agreed that he's nerdy, but nice. I think they'll like him more once they get to know him better.

There has been a lot of drama with my friends/roommates love lives. I'm trying to be supportive to them, but there's just so much crap that goes on. Why do people hurt eachother so badly? It makes me want to cry, seeing my friends in pain! But, I'll keep praying, and trying to be supportive/encouraging, etc.

ok, time for bed now.

I spent most of the day with Nick again. I've really gotten used to having him around, and I like it. WE had a good time hanging out at church (nursery duty) and the potluck afterward, and in the afternoon, and with some of my DI friends for my superbowl party. Gentry had us take a personality profile thing, and Nick and I turned out to be really different (go figure). ALl the things he is most like, I am least like. It was nice to have something fun like that to start conversations. We also decided that Valentines day is too contrived, and we both have previous engagements anyway, so we're not doing much. I think Nick was relieved when he found out that I felt the same way about that.

Time for bed!